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Peace in the Waiting

My goodness it has been a while since I’ve blogged here! I’ve had an uptick of followers though and thought I ought to say hi! So, hello there! I am a little better at blogging on my new site: https://www.arkansasbirthphotography.com/blog (well, not all that much better…ha!)

Since my last post here we’ve just been living life and adjusting to our new perimeters. Slowly. Ha. We arrived back from Crete mid August and at that time I started pursuing my photography business in earnest (since I can legally work in the states!) My passion for documenting the stories of women/childbirth/babies/family has certainly kept me busy since!

I also applied and was accepted as a volunteer photographer with Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep. I had always been convinced I wouldn’t know how to deal with people going through a season of grief, but I felt an unmistakable pull towards these particular families who must say goodbye to their tiniest members. My nerves peaked right before my first session but after entering the room and introducing myself to the parents I felt nothing but peace. It is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced, this certainty that I have been empowered specifically to give this gift, that I am EXACTLY in the place and time where my creator wants me to be. I find such incredible beauty and rest in the presence of these sleeping angels. There is no fear or sadness in doing my job: I know they are back with the one who knit them together in the first place, for a purpose – however obscure it may seem to us here on Earth. The incredible honor of being one of the few people to meet these precious little souls is not lost on me and I think about them daily.

In other news: my hubby transitioned from active duty to the reserves upon arriving back to the states but has been on active orders almost the entire time. It has definitely been an interesting transitional period, especially with starting a small business and a volunteer commitment thrown in the mix. We have dealt with a few separations but in all it hasn’t been so bad. We are still waiting for a more permanent feeling situation in career and housing but we did upgrade to that mini van we wanted just before we found out about Europe! Cici is a lovely Toyota Sienna and is such a joy to drive. We just returned from a three week road trip where we tested her out and scratched our travel itchy feet a little ❤

Our boys are doing great and we look forward to getting more settled so that we can move in the direction of becoming foster parents, which has been a dream of ours for years.

Many situations in our lives may still be in flux but along with my village’s support and commiseration, I am doing better at finding peace in the waiting.

 

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