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Peace in the Waiting

My goodness it has been a while since I’ve blogged here! I’ve had an uptick of followers though and thought I ought to say hi! So, hello there! I am a little better at blogging on my new site: https://www.arkansasbirthphotography.com/blog (well, not all that much better…ha!)

Since my last post here we’ve just been living life and adjusting to our new perimeters. Slowly. Ha. We arrived back from Crete mid August and at that time I started pursuing my photography business in earnest (since I can legally work in the states!) My passion for documenting the stories of women/childbirth/babies/family has certainly kept me busy since!

I also applied and was accepted as a volunteer photographer with Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep. I had always been convinced I wouldn’t know how to deal with people going through a season of grief, but I felt an unmistakable pull towards these particular families who must say goodbye to their tiniest members. My nerves peaked right before my first session but after entering the room and introducing myself to the parents I felt nothing but peace. It is unlike anything I’ve ever experienced, this certainty that I have been empowered specifically to give this gift, that I am EXACTLY in the place and time where my creator wants me to be. I find such incredible beauty and rest in the presence of these sleeping angels. There is no fear or sadness in doing my job: I know they are back with the one who knit them together in the first place, for a purpose – however obscure it may seem to us here on Earth. The incredible honor of being one of the few people to meet these precious little souls is not lost on me and I think about them daily.

In other news: my hubby transitioned from active duty to the reserves upon arriving back to the states but has been on active orders almost the entire time. It has definitely been an interesting transitional period, especially with starting a small business and a volunteer commitment thrown in the mix. We have dealt with a few separations but in all it hasn’t been so bad. We are still waiting for a more permanent feeling situation in career and housing but we did upgrade to that mini van we wanted just before we found out about Europe! Cici is a lovely Toyota Sienna and is such a joy to drive. We just returned from a three week road trip where we tested her out and scratched our travel itchy feet a little ❤

Our boys are doing great and we look forward to getting more settled so that we can move in the direction of becoming foster parents, which has been a dream of ours for years.

Many situations in our lives may still be in flux but along with my village’s support and commiseration, I am doing better at finding peace in the waiting.


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Wherein our heroine makes a new start and anticipates many adventures

Blatherskite was a kitten I had as a teenager. He was named after a cat owned by Mark Twain. Although we only had a short time together and those memories are quite faded indeed, he was the most awesomely named cat I have ever owned (sorry, Emma). At any rate, so that you know, a couple of long lost but awesomely named cats inspired the blog title.

This is one of Mark Twain’s cats. Although not Blatherskite, he is black, in much the same way my Blatherskite was.
Photo by Mark Twain’s daughter, Jean Clemens
from the archives of the Mark Twain Papers, University of California, Berkeley.

I digress.

I am a newly minted Air Force wife (married September 1, 2012). I have a 3 1/2 year old son by my first marriage. More on our small ceremony (and sweet inclusion of said tot in the vows) in a later post. This post is about a slowly resolving quarter life identity crisis. This in itself isn’t really news worthy. Most of what I will write about won’t be, so if you are looking for hard news, move on.

My adult life began somewhat in the usual way. I was home schooled the last three years of high school until I decided to take my GED in my senior year. I attended college, where I did well. I married during my Junior year and then graduated as planned the next. The summer of my graduation happened to coincide with the beginnings of a certain economic downturn so we decided to stop the fruitless job search (history degree, speaking: would you like fries with that?) and have a baby. This course of events successfully underway, my ex husband became very ill, which precipitated a three year downward spiral full of hospitals, drama, single momming and other unsavory bits and bobs.

Fast forward to this year.

A finalized divorce, a whirlwind romance, a wedding.

And now I find myself back at home after a nearly two year stint as a single working mom. I also find myself the owner of a shiny new military dependent ID card; my first since the ID issued me as an army brat had to be relinquished upon my turning 21. I am also a wife again which manages to only terrify me about half of the time- battle scars, you know?

My guy? A 30 year old nearly confirmed bachelor. A servant hearted nice guy – you know the type? The ones who think they always finish last? Not so, old chap. We found each other after much prayer (this story and more, after the break!) and are as exited as can be about starting our journey to fulfill our God given roles as spouses and parents within this new family. A very exciting new chapter, if I can be so trite, for both of us!

And this blog.

A dream come true and so fast is exhilarating and amazing but does tend to leave one’s head spinning. Working to staying at home. Making ends meet at ‘just a job’ to the opportunity to raise my son and pursue true interests (doula, lactation consultant, sewist, blogger). Struggling to raise a strong willed toddler on my own, to having a family unit and a strong co-parent (not to mention the siblings I have always wanted for the little guy, if we are so blessed).

I created this blog in the hope that during this delightful/disarming time of transition, writing will help center me and organize my thoughts. And if anyone else should be mildly amused or occasionally gifted with an interesting insight, well, that would be a bonus.

Up next…an illuminating treatise on the identity of a military wife. Stay tuned 😉

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